Dont attempt to give up on something or someone.....

Who you absolutely can't stop thinking about!

That said, the year is almost up. I have a lot of fat to go.

This year has proven to be so transitional, I never thought I'd lose a lot of weight in my life and manage to keep it off. I love it, and I am going to the gym to keep it off more.

Now I have used positive thinking as well as prayers for my weight loss too, I of course add in a lot of motivation to not eat breads and cakes and red meat a lot, but here is my novena www.2heartsnetwork.org/Eucharistic_Adoration.doc not to preach or anything but it has really helped me out in the past and it has proven to be very effective. We need all the help we can get in these times. It is called 

A Quarter of an Hour before the Blessed Sacrament :) here is a quick preview (download it):

To please Me, dear child, it is not necessary to know much; all that is required is to love Me much, to be deeply sorry

for ever having offended Me and desirous of being ever faithful to Me in future.

Speak to Me of the poor you wish to comfort; tell Me all that now fills your mind and heart. Are there any you wish to

commend to Me? Tell Me their names, and tell Me what you would wish Me to do for them. Do not fear, ask for much, I

love generous hearts, which, forgetting themselves, wish well to others.

Speak to Me of the poor you wish to comfort; tell Me of the sick that you would wish to see relieved. Ask of Me

something for those who have been unkind to you, or who have crossed you. Ask much for them all; commend them all

with your heart to Me.

And ask Me many graces for yourself. Are there not many graces you would wish to name that would make you

happier in yourself, more useful and pleasing to others, more worthy of the love of Me, the dearest Lord, master, and

Spouse of your soul? Tell Me the whole list of the favors you want of Me. Tell Me them humility, knowing how poor you

are without them, how unable to gain them by yourself; ask for them with much love, that they may make you more

pleasing to Me. With all a child's simplicity, tell Me how self-seeking you are, how proud, vain, irritable, how cowardly in

sacrifice, how lazy in work, uncertain in your good resolutions, and then ask Me to bless and crown your efforts. Poor

child, fear not, blush not at the sight of so many failings; there are Saints in heaven who had the faults you have; they

came to Me lovingly, they prayed earnestly to Me, and My grace has made them good and holy in My sight.

You should be Mine, body and soul; fear not, therefore, to ask of Me gifts of body and mind, health, judgment, memory

and success. Ask for them for My sake; that God may be glorified in all things. I can grant everything, and never refuse to

give what may make a soul dearer to Me and better able to fulfill the will of God.

Have you no plans for the future which occupy, perhaps distress, your mind? Tell Me your hopes, your fears. Is is about

your future state? Your position among My creatures? Some good you wish to bring to others? In what shall I help and

bless your good will?

And for Me you must have, have you not, some zeal, some wish to do good to the souls of others. Some, perhaps, who

love and care for you, have ceased, almost, to know or care for Me. Shall I give you strength, wisdom and tact, to bring

these poor ones close to my heart again? Have you failed in the past? Tell Me how you acted; I will show you why you did

not gain all you expected; rely on Me, I will help you, and will guide you to lead others to Me.

And what crosses have you, My dear Child? Have they been many and heavy ones? Has someone caused you pain?

Someone wounded your self-love? Slighted you? Injured you? Lay your head upon My breast, and tell Me how you

suffered. Have you felt that some have been ungrateful to you, and unfeeling towards you? Tell Me all, and in the warmth

of My heart you will find strength to forgive and even to forget that they have ever wished to pain you.

And what fears have you, My child? My providence shall comfort you. My love sustains you. I am never away from

you, never can abandon you. Are some growing cold in the interest and love they had for you? Pray to Me for them; I will

restore them to you if it be better for you and your sanctification.

Update update..Sophie Dahl's amazing transition

Plus size models, I have always respected what they represent, but deep inside I don't think its right to try and tell people it's ok to have high body fat. If you look it up on Wikipedia, human beings are programmed to look for flaws and high body fat usually means more diseases (risk of heart attack, diabetes).

Let's tackle this issue a little bit more, if you DO have high blood pressure you will most likely suffer from a heart attack or fall into paralysis. High blood pressure though is easier to "fix" with the right blockers (calcium blockers, for example) but low blood pressure on the other hand (which is sometimes caused by being too underweight) will kill you easily because once your blood is low and it fails to reach your brain in time there is no way to "fix" it since you cant pump a pint-full of blood in time.

Anyway enough of that rubbish, I have been slacking off and eating junk. I don't mean eating vast amounts of donut and cakes, what I mean is I am drinking soda and eating carbs more often than usual.

I have been having trouble sleeping and carbs will help me sleep, at least for now.

Since  I have no updated pictures to upload I will just put Sophie Dahl's picture here..she has lost a lot of weight and is one of my (thin)inspirations.

I love her style with that black dress.

Diet coffee and diet orange juice

When I look into your eyes I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you, don't you know I feel the same? yeah
Nothin' lasts forever and we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle in the cold November rain



Hi guys ive completely lost a lot of weight now, but I still need a lot to work on. Obviously my stomach is very flabby due to the fact that I do not eat, so my stomach doesnt have muscles. So it cant burn fat. :(
I am going to start w/ thermogenic foods and crunches. These diet coffees and diet orange juice works for me, it's like i lost excitement for food. I used to plan what i would eat in the weekend but now i cant stand to be around food anymore. :( I think about food but they dont seem so nice or yummy when they are in my mouth. Thermogenic foods can really help you boost up your metabolism, get rid of toxins and possibly lower your blood sugar as well as blood pressure levels. It's time we put a stop to treating our tummies like its a trash can!

I am so happy with my dresses. Although i am broke and all i think about is food sometimes, the food does not seem to taste that good when i eat them. I dont understand these changes to be honest.

I was really looking for this dress:

Saw this movie called "Looker". Great movie set in the 80's but it's really very ahead of it's time.

Anyway this woman is so stunningly fit, no doubt shes a looker. :)

It's a movie about women who undergo plastic surgery to look "perfect". Then they start getting killed..Check it out, it's written by Michael Crichton (The Firm, Congo)



"Maybe it's not blood bonds that make us a family. Perhaps it's the people who know our secrets and love us anyway so we can finally be ourselves.”

April 4 Status Update :)

I have not updated for a while, things have been pretty slow on the weight loss side. I currently weigh 115 lbs or 53 kgs, and although I can finally fit on the skinny jeans I still feel really big. My tummy is big, I have cut on carbs but I have not fully committed to working out.

1 month and 10 days later

I have to admit, relying on dieting alone without exercise did not help me much. My stomach thinned a little in front but the hips/sides/handles did not seem to lose significant amount of fat.

Pretty face is for long term relationships

So take this little test: if you were interested in pursuing a partner for a short-term relationship which would you be most interested in…their face or their body? And for a long-term relationship, face or body? That is, if you were forced to choose, of course.

Well two PhD students and their advisor, David Buss professor of psychology at the University of Texas at Austin, did force people to make this very choice. They asked 375 college students to pick whether to date someone based on either seeing just their face or their body.

Nearly all participants chose to see the face. Except for one of the sexes in one situation.

Can you guess which one?

Here’s Jaime Confer, one of the student researchers:

"Everyone was more interested in the opposite sex person’s face than their body—except for men in the short-term mating condition."

Which implies?

"When men were evaluating a short-term mate for a one-night stand they showed equal interest in her face and body instead of the face winning by a blowout."

For long-term 75 percent of male participants wanted to see the face, but for short-term flings 50 percent of men chose face and 50 percent chose the body.

And why would this be?

"Because cues of immediate fertility which are more important to a man pursuing short-term relationships are more densely concentrated in her body than in her face. Where as her face may have more cues of reproductive value like age and health."

Such as?

"Skin and wrinkling gives a cue to her age and her reproductive value. So if I'm going to secure this woman for many years, I want to make sure she’s not at the tail end of the fertility window."

Presumably you could tell that by looking at her body, as well?

"You could but it might be relatively more concentrated in her face than in her body."

And this is not the case in men?

"There is not this huge discrepancy in cues that women are interested in, like his good genes cues and good dad cues, health and symmetry. Those are present in face and body equally."

Freud famously asked, what do women want. I guess it was clear to him what men wanted.

—Christie Nicholson

http://www.scientificamerican.com/podcast/episode.cfm?id=a-pretty-face-or-a-hot-body-09-10-27

Forgetting..is a sin

Ok so lately I have been pretty much satisfied with the current weight loss I have, although it is pretty obvious I am not losing it fast enough. I have been content doing what I do every day but just consuming less calories.

Let me tell you why this is wrong.

First of all time is money, friend. I don't have forever, in fact my looks are going downhill way too fast I don't even know what feature is making it terribly bad.

I have read Brad's Fashion Bible and even though it said its catered for men, it also has parts that serves women too. Which would be:

being attractive and on top of your game means that you have a wider selection of your choice of mate

SO PLEASE WAKE UP AND lose that belly!